i think i’m getting depressed again, and i don’t know if it’s my birth control (which i stopped taking), or my period, or the fact that i’m in a relationship that actually requires EMOTIONS, or a combination of the above, but it really fucking sucks. because i’m falling into old patterns of how relationships used to be, when THIS ONE IS NOTHING LIKE THEM, and i’m just so used to it, but ever since i started caring it’s been one string of “when is this relationship going to have to end?” or “when will i scare him off with my worrying?” or “is my sex drive fluctuating going to fuck this up?” and i didn’t feel like this at all when i was alone. i felt, like, no real emotions, which was nice but also…not fulfilling i guess? like i’m very happy now, but i also worry now, and is that the tradeoff? it sucks because THIS IS THE FIRST ADULT RELATIONSHIP I’VE HAD, but i still feel like maybe my age is what’s keeping me from being at the same level he is, but i want to be there. i want to live in the moment and not worry, because I WAS DOING THAT WHEN I WAS SINGLE and just fucking around with whomever. but finding someone i actually care for after a year and a half of being completely alone has made it difficult. i don’t know. i liked not feeling…so maybe i should go back to that. maybe i should break this off before i get REALLY invested and hurt when one of us moves or breaks things off. like get ahead of myself. i don’t know. maybe i just need to see how the week goes and see if this feeling goes away. i want to be happy or apathetic again. i want to not hurt from the thought of being alone again. he’s just a really cool guy. i’ve never met anyone like him. [insert other cliche but true statements here] but i know me. and i come first. and i will always be here for myself. i just need to remember that and enjoy the moment instead of fucking up the present worrying about what MAY OR MAY NOT HAPPEN in the future. shit happens. i’ll live. i’ve got so much time and life ahead of me. just need to enjoy.
HE THINKS HE’S AMBULANCE
IM SO SORRY ABOUT THE TIME VIDEO WATCH THIS DOG BE AN AMBULANCE INSTEAD OKAY FRIENDS
why are blonde jokes so short?
so men can remember them
this took an unexpected turn
Not if you just asked for directions.
The Fallout by everythursday
"Granger, we’re in the fucking fallout." His eyes scan across the lake, back and forth, like he can see it all in front and around them. "It doesn’t get much more destroyed than this. Isn’t that your bleeding heart cue to start saving?"
"It’s just…sometimes…shouldn’t it kill me?" She sighs, shoving her hair back from her face, angry that she can’t find the right words to say.
"Like you’d let it." He’s smirking at her, and her cheeks turn red. Not from arousal, or embarrassment, just warmth. The kind of warmth that starts from the inside and surprises you.
How I feel about religion. God should be presented as what he is, love and kindness. Stop using his name to justify your racism, homophobia and sexism
I’m not religious, but this comic is flipping adorable.
to be able
to consume comedic content
without being constantly braced for a “joke”
in which people like me are the punchline.
I feel this is very important.
It’s been apparent to me for a while that most men can’t really imagine “equality.” All they can imagine is having the existing power structure inverted.
I cannot decide whether this shows how unimaginative they are, or shows how aware they must be of what they do in order to so deeply fear having it turned on them.
"Most men can’t really imagine “equality.” All they can imagine is having the existing power structure inverted."
pll has been so good this season, like alison was such a necessary character and her relationships with the girls are so intense and DIFFERENT FOR EACH OF THEM and still reminiscent of their past ties but still shifting and she is still such an untrustworthy character but you STILL WANT TO BELIEVE HER, and you want to know what REALLY happened while she was gone, and a fucking show with so many female characters as leads with different strengths and ways to show that as well as apologize and admit mistakes and hold grudges and feel uncertain in your own skin and your friendships is SOOO high school and they recently addressed RAPECULT IN TWO EPISODES ALBEIT IN A “ABC FAMILY WAY” AND I’M JUST SO PROUD OF THIS SHOW